We are strange creatures and let's not cover ourselves under the countless blankets of denial here. We are truly very strange.

The construct of every individual beings and the purpose of their destiny is as complex to me as algebra in secondary school. Well i fail my maths and i wonder if those universities algebra is even more complex. I shall wait to be standing in correction.

I have an occupational hazard with an occupation that those not exist and as hazardrous as it is disasterous. I always wonder why i place my heart on my sleeves knowing that i have always knew why i place it there to rot and be hammered with. I don't even know why i need to wonder. But i'm stubborn. The worst part is that my stubborness came from nothing and it is in nothing that affect so many things in my life.

In beliefs and principals i had alot. If they were categorize from A to Z, i would have "A to Z". And if in psychology, "A to Z" would be stated as a dichotomy. I would have "A to Z" the negative, the positive, the in betweens, the upside down, the inside out and whatever.

My principals is this, if you are able you are able. If you are able, there must not be any reason that you can go to being disable. But if you are disable and there's an oppurtunity of will do be able that i salute you.

I shall continue tomorrow, got to punch out now.

As much as i love nature and for nature to take it's course but there's always this urgent reminder inside of me that time waits for no man. I've always advocate the principle that limitation is a dangerous plaque in our minds. We have done so for safety and survival, to seek comfort in it. In the "real" world with this principle at hand a "normal" man of a logical mind wouldn't think so for because of status, money and power i had never been able to sustain in abundance and therefore I'm limited.

With that say, i believe that i don't belong to the category of the "real" world nor do i belong to the category of a "normal" man. For the control of the mind has always been the "real" and the "normal" to me. Not status, money or power. In doing so i believe that this powerful feeling call regret will be lessen in any man's future. For if they had did what they have always wanted to do, say or feel in a responsible and conscious manner, it will heighten the sense of bliss when the day their journey in this world has ended. Not the amount of money you have in your bank account, how powerful you are or how high you've climb up the ladder. If what you have limits the soul of other people or yourself it's better not worth having.

But doing so and thinking so, i sometimes feel that I've limited myself just by holding the beacon flashing "Don't limit yourself! Don't limit yourself! Don't limit yourself!":at people's face. Well i can do it subtly sometimes but than again time has never been on our side. Limiting myself to limitation isn't that a limitation in itself?

I've wonder, gone nuts, apologize and apologize again to countless of people that is very close to me. For to me, they are the one who has to endure the bombardment of my beacon time and time again. For i love them so much, too much. So say it works, so say it doesn't, i don't care cause i care too much. I may be the only one in your world that is willing to eradicate a few of your limitations rather than none trying at all or there may be many. But in doing so i feel that i expect a certain kind of results and that limits me and that the purpose for this entry is to show you that I'm very much a human after all.

I should just stop taking on people's burden and be one of the "normal" man. For i have given up. It hurts people and i don't like that feeling to know and know for a fact that I've caused it. It's mentally draining for so many people and i should do them a favor and just shut up and don't think too much. I've have always been the way i am so that you will never regret living your life the way it is, i have this sense of responsibility to train you before your physical life cease it's course, that if i am in your world i will do all i can even after i leave. But i know now that to some, the biggest regret is that they have let me into their world. And i am sorry. The vision of a warrior turning to see his village burn down. Now i know what it meant. I am an extreme. A sleep deprivation and position of sleep may not be something to blow up about. Stop complaining may be something to be agitated about. Don't think of the pain and stop saying i can't do it may be something totally insensible to even contemplate. I will do all a favor and extinguish this beacon. It has no longer serve it's cause. So too my mind.

let it be and you shall see what i see
turn around only to put it on snooze
smile not with words that you type
cry when it rains on sunset avenue

it can't be describe
so let it be
it'll let us feel
and we shall be free
remember this please

"COURAGE"

"That is what i call a smirk on my face"

"Enigma"

"Too much information up here man"

"Lollipop anyone?"

"Damn those boogers"

"Hee"

A samurai met a zen master and ask him, "Is there such as heaven and hell?"
In which the zen master replied "WHO ARE YOU?!"
"I am a samurai" he says.
"You?! A samurai?! Hahaha. You look no ordinary than a begger in the streets" the zen master shouted.
Fill with rage and anger by the zen master lack of respect for a samurai, he instantly went for his sword.
Seeing that the samurai was about to kill him with his sword, the zen master says calmly, "Here lies the gates of hell"
Understanding what the zen master meant, the samurai than drop his sword and bow on his knees.
Looking up at the zen master, the samurai says with tears in his eyes, "Here lies the gate of heaven"

"we have constantly and consistently misinterpret forcing our own interpretation of an interpretation that has already been govern by the law of nature"

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