Here it goes. 19th December 2007. The motherfucking black wednesday.

Started work in the bar at 6pm. Everything started quite alright. Just like any normal days. Untill...

I had to photocopy some documents in the office. Looking at the security cameras recording everybody moves in cafe del mar, my attention was focus on the office camera recording it's front door. I saw one of my bar colleuges on the camera, Ricky was the bloke's name.

I turn around and Ricky told me ever so politely, "Zul, Mr ken is looking for you". The first thing that when through my mind was "Did someone faint? Or did someone complain about the drinks? It couldn't be me cause i haven't made any drinks since i started work. Well even if i did not make any drinks, it is still my responsibility if something stupid happens. Better get this paperwork over and done with" So i rush out of the office, not in haste and not too slow.

Ken was in the bar checking the equipments. The only thing i did once i step in the bar was to say "Ken, you looking for me?" He quickly replied asking me about the cleanliness of the bar yada yada yada and that Prima Deli is under investigation for food poisoning. In my heart i kept asking myself that cleanliness should be check like once a week or twice a month at least. Not until some Prima Deli place gets it than we start moving our asses. I think it must be a Japanese thing. I hope so, than i would at least think that Ken is still a bright fellow.

Than he drop me a really tricky question. "Zul whats the co2 opitimum guage ar?". I mean wow Ken you got me stump. I had to think quickly and i replied in a not very smart way "Erm i'm not really sure" and he gave me a not really smart answer in return, "Wow bartender also don't know ar! Go ask your captain ar!" Thanks Ken you're the best.

So he checked the front and the back of the bar. He instructed me to clear the shit at the back. I did that. He ask me whether this certain kind of bill folder was still in use when he found it stash in the drawer under the cash register. I say i go ask Ju whether she's using it still. Than he left. UP YOURS KEN!!!

A couple of minutes later Ju walked past the bar. I showed her what i did to her back area cash register. She nod. I told her about the bill folder. She ask me where is it. I say i passed to Alex. I ask Alex. He told me that he think Ken took it already. So i ask Ju to double check with ken on what to do with this certain kind of bill folder before anyone decides to throw it away. She nod and say okay.

Now this is the best part. Ken came storming to the bar like a fuming japanese emperor who thought i cheated on his othello game. "Wow Zul, play ball ar?! Why you told Ju that i take the bill folder ar!! I where got take ar!!" Now at this moment i was like what the fuck man and in a split second while i tried to explain that Alex told me otherwise, Ricky who was on my left, took the bill folder from under the fridge and when "It's here" (Thanks Ricky you're the best). Ken,"There blah blah blah, yada yada yada arrrrrrrrr" Got it twice in a row from him. Ken is the champion!

I was piss. Not piss as in i'm going to kill your family kind of thing but piss as in pissing piss. Short and warm. Next up was the episode when i shouted at my china bar back.

3 times!! 3 times i told him to top up the fridge so that he can go back on the dot at 8pm. And 3 times, 3 times he when back to wiping the wall. I shouted. I don't regret that i shouted at him but i regretted not talking to him slowly, word by word to t o p u p t h e f r i d g e. NEXT BETTER EPISODE..

A group of young foreign people came up to the bar, 2 of the blokes ordered 2 shots of grey goose. Yes Sir right way Sir after you show me your fucking IDs (i whisper under my breath) "Can i see your IDs" was what i really said. The ID slip from one of the guys hand and it when straight into the ice bin. Now slip and throw is two really different thing but i would like to call it throw just for the fun of starting a fight. "Sir" i raise my voice slightly, "I don't think you need to throw your card at me" saying it while pointing my finger (the second not the middle) at his long nose. "Well" he said in his accent "I must have buttery fingers". Now pause for awhile. At that very moment, at that second i wanted to jump over the bar and give him a stone cold stunner but i didn't cause Xander was looking at me. Xander like to look cause he's a looker. So i didn't do anything but someone certainly made things worse for me and it's non other than the japanese guy himself.

Ken, yes ken had to come in this picture as well. ZUL DON'T SERVE THEM YET AR>BUT KEN I'VE CHECK THEIR ID ALREADY>WHY YOOOOO CHECKKKKK ARRRRR!!! GOT SECURITY FOR WHAT AEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
The only thing i did after that was to wave at him and smile. My anger has taken a back seat. My anger is useless. It has lost it's mojo at that very instance.

End of the night i got a block nose and luckily nothing major happen at work like maybe a japanese flag caught fire or something. Nope that didn't happen but got a block nose still. Got change and walked to our company transport for our tour-like ride home. Block nose still there. Tour-like as in tour-like slow. Nose still. I, Kathi, Mez and Song decided although not willingly to go for supper to go for supper anyway. Am still blocked. Song took the front seat so i decided to seat behind him. Blocked. When in. Still can smell anything. Hey why is the cushion damp? Still can't smell. With further investigation i realised that i just touch a seat covered with PUKE!! BLOOOOOOOOOOOCKED NOOOOOSE!!!

God damn it. I quickly when out of the transport, almost puking myself, "THERE'S PUKE IN YOUR VAN FRANCIS!!!!" "WHYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!". kathi when to investigate with francis. The rest all went "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE". At the end of that episode the four of us decided to take another vehicle and thanks to Kathi we alighted at Vivocity to take cab to our supper destination at Kallang. Got blocked nose still and puke soaked hand.

Fast forward a little. Was joking in the cab how bad and so wrong my day could end up and we had a little laugh when someone said that my food will have onions cause i hate onions and my tea will have ginger cause i had ginger. "CLOSE!!" Kathi shouted in the cab. Close? What close?. I turn my head to the coffeeshop. ARGH The coffeeshop is close. Today is eve of Hari Raya Haji. Numb. I just when numb. Numb like times when you squeeze your upper and lower lip together. I was speechless. Just numb.

I started to get moody. We alighted at Geylang instead. We walk around and we still can't believe why nobody had forsee that Kallang would be close tonight. I didn't have a clue neither did anyone else.

We walk for quite abit. Decided to settle for this shop around lorong 10 i think cause it was showing football and the street hawker was selling carrot cake. Started talking about work, my unlucky day and the future for the four of us. To be honest i couldn't concentrate on the conversation. Was dumbfounded on how my day had turn out the way it is. And being a guy who believes in signs and celestial prophecies yada yada yada, i was just trying to figure out what has just happen. Decided i was too overwhelmed to decipher anything, i decided to refocus my energy and watch football instead. Than..

BOOM! Blackout. The coffeshop when dark, the tv off and me? Well this was a whole new level of things that in two simple word best describe today's unfortunate events,BLACK WEDNESDAY.

my favourite vocalist of 2007. This lady got class when she holds the mic. Her voice is not only exceptionally extraordinary but what i like most about her is the expression that she gives after hitting the high notes. It's like phew that was great kinda of look. Haha. Check her out to see what i mean.

Jaclyn Victor

Oh shit i forgot to blog about black wednesday (19December was a fucked up day for me). Tomorrow than. Stay tune. It was black with the capital LACK!

"Do you sometimes wish that you could be sovereign from the perplexity of these political disorders? I do. Only, it remains inevitable and evading it isn't so much of a guarantee for survival after all. So let the pessimists dwell on their fears, I say." -Nadia

Communism is a theoretical and practical concept that promotes establishment of a classless, stateless society based on common ownership. Now with that said, i believe in two things.

One being that for everything in life, every views, every system or/and every situations, has in it it's own way, a negative or positive effect on the consequence thereafter, hence the Newton's law that every action has an equal or opposite reaction.

Second is, i don't believe that one singular model, system, way, rule, technique or idea will assist in achieving results within the realm of a target or goal that one is out to achieve.

Before i continue, i shall make an assertion in regards to the definition of politics. Politics is a social relation involving authority or power and it refers to the methods and tactics used to formulate and apply policies. So what does policy means?

A policy is a deliberate plan of action to guide decisions and achieve rational outcome. And rational being?

Rationality as a term is related to the idea of reason. Reason to who/what, for who/what?

Now that depends.

For example. Political awareness is a good tool to have. You soak in episodes of conversation, reaction or ideas that has already been implemented. Just soaking it in. Imputing data into your mind. Digesting and to just be present.

Now political awareness with emotions for example. Let say negative emotions. You start soaking in the same conversation, reactions and ideas, not only soaking it in but soaking it in with jealousy, guilt, hatred or pain. You not only end up digesting and imputing those information. You are most likely to leave, attack or kill yourself once the alchemy has taken full flight.

As the saying goes. Do not use a fruit knife or a chainsaw to cut meat. Use a cleaver. Meaning that out of so many tools to be politically incline please choose the right one and for the right reasons. Great power comes with great responsibility. So if you can fly please respect the skies and not block the aeroplanes from landing.

So if i have complete control and supreme authority on this matter would i be a communist like leader? Depending on the situation the best way is to have no way. So to the nay Sayers, the most that we can do to them is to create awareness to be politically incline and that the reason for their demise is simply because they are playing the game wrong, following the wrong rules, hitting the wrong targets and for crying out loud; stop peeing on the referees for once!

So to Nadia. There's no sure way on hitting the right notes for the different genres or even sometimes to defend or argue with the people who hides under their own feaces only to pop their heads out every once in awhile and scream "THATS NOT RIGHT", "YOU ARE A FOOL TO THINK" or "I TOLD YOU SO" because to me the one way and the only way is to just carrying on singing.

Singing for the greater good of humanity. For me although i'm not a great example to begin with. I shall sing to the greater good for the minds of humanity.

2007

26 years old and counting and if i do my maths right I'll be 27 next year. If i even digress with further calculations, I'll be 30 by 2011. That's great. 2011 shall be a great year. Well every year is a great year. I know, cos I'm the all knowing, all thinking and all knowingggggggg zen dentist of nebula 32. I don't really know why i type that? I'm crappy.

2007 coming to an end and like any great writers of the 21st century i shall recall the events that happen within this year, montage like and with teary eye even. Sob Sob.

Cafe del mar. I must admit, I've learn a lot from that place. Met great friends, leaders that i can mould myself into and political situations that was and still is a fun game to me.

B1, Terry and Kathi has given me great insights on the options i can use in leading people. One is damn committed, so much so that a random attack to the heart still won't stop him from coming to work. The other is very supportive, hard working and has a mammoth wealth of knowledge. Very good in his people skill as well. The last is a great leader in motivating, safe mode, aggressive mode and the many modes that can be use in an organization like cafe del mar. It's all about the modes man. And one thing i find in common with all of them is that they're humble, sincere and has been through tough times and gotten out of it alive.

Friends i met that is an inspiration to me, open up my minds to new skills of communicating to people and are of a high pedigree are few and far between in cafe del mar.

Take songster for example. I see a lot of myself in him when i was 17 or 19. Almost freakishly similar in many ways. We are great communicators, some what petty most of the time, great listener and has the knack of influencing people to certain degrees. But the most obvious difference is the way we look and interact with ladies. He is dangerously outgoing to ladies whereas I'm more shy and overly caring to them. Well with that said he is a damn good friend to have. Cheers to you mate. Next year dude, next year the dizzy and songster show will take off!! I sincerely hope.

Than there's Mez. Learn a hell lot from him about the bar and service from conversation as broad as communicating to operations to efficiency. I feel that he is under appreciated most of the times though. He can be one of the greatest leader in FnB i must say. I hope he'll be fucking successful in his career and get what he truly deserve. Seriously. It will be a waste of talent if he gives up. I'll pray man, I'll pray.

Beili. Bar captain and a very capable fella. He taught me that being nice is sometimes workable in this industry. I think without him i might have quit long time ago. And this dude is a fucking hard working capitan. Great potential to be working with someday other than cafe del mar i foresee.

Nadia rawtner the change giver. Change as in coins (hahaha). She's one of the rare thinkers that I've met in my life. I don't totally agree with everything that she says especially about the feminism thing but hey everybody has a different view on how a Utopian like world will look. But she's unique, views from love to cultures to work has help me in broadening my dichotomy on how life functions to different people. In my hearts of hearts i wish that she will get what she wants somewhere in the near future. Was being an editor one of them? I can't recall.

POLITICS. A public secret in cafe del mar. I love politics because it keeps me on my toes. How do you get a fuck up manager to shut his gap and to stop power tripping? Who do you mix with, the influencers or the low profilers? Do you make known you capabilities now or later? When do you attack and when do you retreat? The best time to scream at your staff and how do you get them to stay motivated still? How to get people to watch your back? Why showing weakness is sometimes good?

And a whole lot more still. I truly believe that being politically incline in an organization is a MUST. The nay Sayers will definitely object stating that it's a total detriment of empowerment and positive development.

But knowing in history that even Mohammad, prophet of Islam uses politics to impart the fundamentals of Islam to his people and to get them in Islam. Jesus too. Parents too are political, how do i get my kids to a good school? How to show my son that I'm not favouring big sister when an argument happens?

When you go to a coffee shop you are also being political in a way. Which store do i choose? What do i want to eat? I hate this store it gave me bad service, but i love the food though, damn, how?

So looking back at 2007 it's was a great ride. 2 more token for the new ride of 2008. Buckle your seat belt, it's time for me to whether the storm!

Great unplugged set

New and old

The Pose that can't go wrong

DBS street party at haji lane

I love this pic





The gang that i've not met for a long time

definition of rsvp

"Répondez s'il-vous-plaît" or
"Réservez s'il-vous-plaît",

a French phrase that translates to "Please respond".
It is with this meaning that invitation cards and similar documents are often marked with

"R.S.V.P.".

shake your fucking asses

fuck YEAH!

i shall now be profoundly profound...NOW!!!!!

Last post September 27

That's abit too long

73days a tad too long

Not a good thing

I shall update

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!


been sick for the past few weeks, just recovered. the past few weeks meaning counting backwards as of december 10 2007 and sick as in heavy lungs, weazing like a weazer, runny nose and smelly feet.

been feeling playerish lately since 2 weeks ago. must be the kimchi episode. or was it since a month ago. can't remember. or maybe it was the pyjamas party episode. can't remember still.

been raining german shepard and siamese cats for the past 6 to 8 days. good weather for some christmas-like ambience. still can't afford a christmas tree though. oh well. maybe next year when i'm fucking rich. rich as in FUCKING RICH!!!!


painted almost all of my wall (one of the four side only). looks very mexicanish. thinking of pimping the house. need some hari raya blinking blinking lights on top of the front yard. really need some decor boost for the interior still. it has already been 5 months since me and my mates move in. i still havent do anything yet. i'm useless. i shall kill myself tomorrow!


recent event. zouk out is over and done with. 18th of december. steve aoki got me blown away. wat a crazy mutherfucker he is. he is my new influence to push me forward through the new year. i want to dance like him, look like him, smell like him and stand on the dj console like him (i'm not a dj but i might as well jump on the bar top this coming new year eve party at cafe del mar jus like him). carl cox was so-so. armeen van bureen was a notch better than so-so. i miss electrico performance and the much anticipated i am david spade (or something) worse i miss aldrin set as well. note to self. plan yur movement specifically for the next zouk out and get your 40.20 worth. if there ever is a next one.


steve aoki: http://youtube.com/watch?v=wH6uQUm7E7I



thinking of moving to a new place

feeling like being in a relationship

feeling like getting a new job, beggining of next year

feeling like going for a jog yada yada yada

feeling like punching someone

here are some pictures that was taken recently so i can stop typing and go to sleep...


ain's harboiled magazine launch / helping her the best that i can



kenneth francis vs hong vs another dude at m.o.s (pure)



zouk out 2007 going and at the party